Wednesday, November 11, 2009

Crazy...I know.

Why do I feel like I'm doing something wrong if I'm not suffering?  I know I'm here to be happy, and experience joy as well as pain, but for some reason, I start feeling guilty if I get too happy.  Knowing something, and understanding it are two very different things.  Right now, I'm working on coming to some kind of understanding with myself about happiness and beauty and their roles in my life. 

Any comments?

8 comments:

Kinsey said...

Sonj, I have nothing profound or helpful to say because I'm young and stupid still, but I just wanted to say you're awesome and I love you!!

smlaw said...

I think we get too hard on ourselves sometimes. There are times in our lives when it's ok to have things going good and to not have challenges eating away at us-it's those times that we refuel and recharge so we can handle other times and trials. I hope everything is ok. I think about you a lot and hope we can see eachother sometime soon! Good luck with the new baby and the other two beautiful children. I can't imagine having three so way to go!

Katie said...

I sometimes have the same thought, as if being happy and realizing I'm happy will jinx it and then I'll hit a rut again. So I don't think you're crazy, I think it's ok to be 'too happy' as long as we're grateful for it? I don't know! Deep thought!

Durrett Family Band said...

I get what you're saying. I feel nervous when things start to seem too perfect, like I'm waiting for the bottom to drop out from under me. Why can't I just enjoy the bliss without worrying about what is coming next?

Sonja said...

You guys are awesome! Thanks for your support!

And hello there, Suzanne! I've missed you! Where are you at now? Anywhere near Dallas?! I'd love to see you too!

smlaw said...

Not exactly near Dallas although I would love to come and visit there again! We are in Utah, Peter is in his second year of law school actually. Maybe once we aren't students anymore I can afford to come and see you and my other friend in Dallas!! Coming to UT anytime soon?

Sonja said...

Bummer. We're not. But next time we drive through on our way to Canada (a veeeerrrrryyyyy long drive), maybe we'll stop in and say hi! Law school, eh? Kirk just finished with that, so I feel for you. Is he at the Y?

What's your email address, by the way?!

Sonja said...

That last comment from me was directed to my college friend Suzanne, by the way. Just in case anyone was wondering "who me?!"